I Hate Air Travel
I've been stuck at LAX for the past few hours... nothing ever goes as planned it seems.
Why did we bail out the airlines after 9/11? If European or Asian carriers had bought the airlines, none of this would be happening. We'd have a new air traffic control system... we wouldn't be sitting here looking out the window for news on our flights - actual airline personnel would be here telling us what's going on (currently there's no one there).
Since 9/11 we've given up comfort, food and service and paid lots of tax dollars for it.
I hate air travel. Have I mentioned that lately?
Blogger Betrayer?
Now that I know only a few people - evidently including a beer marketer - are reading this, I can admit a few things. Like how I just got a new job that will take me far away from my current one and back to the homeland. This time, however, I'll not only be inside the Beltway, I'll be inside Capitol Hill.
I have no problem with the new post (I keep telling my dog we're actually in the military and that's why we move so often, so I guess I'll keep up that story for her). I'm proud to be working for the member of Congress that I'll be working for. I think he does great work and cares about the people he's supposed to be representing, not just himself. He seems to have a nice staff and I hear the offices are schweet!
But I've spent so much time on blogs, especially DKos, that I'm having a bit of cognitive dissonance. Can I be inside the inner circle and not be part of the problem? That's kind of how working in politics is posed on such sites and I've certainly seen it in action. Know it can be true.
I've been here this week doing some enviro work and have been steeped in the need to find compromise to find solutions. The old "sue them and sue them and then sue them again" strategy of the enviro community is not only tiresome, it's eventually counter-productive. The only thing that protects the environment is good policy. That requires some good governing.
Maybe it's because this is my hometown, but I believe there is such a thing as good governing. I just don't believe Republicans can do it. Clearly, they hate government, except for when they can manipulate its levers to dispense government money to them and their cronies. Dems - while still believers in bringing home the bacon to their constituents - believe that government can be a force for good, the great leveler of playing fields. They believe in accountable government too. I like these things.
So can I be a member of the blogosphere and a member of government at the same time? I guess Ted Kennedy and others who write on DKos can. Maybe this is just stupid rumination. But I'm watching myself be skeptical of myself and it's hurting my head.
I'm ecstatic to have this opportunity to get on the battle field for the good guys. I'm hopeful I can do it without becoming disillusioned and cynical (hey, I'm already there, aren't I?). I guess I won't know til I walk through the doors that first day and hunker down to work.
Every job I've ever had has made me cynical and disillusioned at some point in time, so why should I expect this to be any different? As long as I can see myself helping a good boss move the ball down the field towards goals I believe in, I do believe this will be one cool gig.
Yee-ha.
Flying Purgatory Air, Coach
Woke up at 3:30 am after a lousy night of sleep. I never sleep well when I have to get up insanely early. Afraid I'll miss the alarm. Cab picked me up at 4:30. Got to the airport by 5. Through security by 5:30. Waited for my 6:30 flight to Seattle, then to DC. Got on the plane. Got off the plane. Got back on the plane. Fog in Seattle has done it again - put me in air travel purgatory.
They flew us to Portland. Thank god for free wireless. Without it, I'd have to listen to the FOX news blasting from various TVs. Did you know that Barack Obama is a plagiarist and that his Harvard-educated wife made $200K a year working for a hospital AND has never been proud of America til now???? And I got all that just from the chyrons and crawl.
I'm supposed to get on a noon flight to DC via Cincinnati - but is anyone taking bets? My old boss used to (joke that?) he hated flying with me because of my bad flying karma. If only he knew...
Yes, I'm an airport refugee. A vegetarian who's packed enough food to get me all the way east with no help at all. I'm an airport refugee... (sing it with me).... trying not to hit the Rogue Ale Pub House I'm staring at longinglyyyyy...... Hey, it's almost 11! That's at least 5:00 in Paris.
Sigh.
There's got to be an easier way.
On Authenticity
I'll admit it. I'm a pop culture addict. It all began as a kid when I started worshipping Marilyn Monroe. She was one of the first stars to die early and tragically in my life. As a little Catholic kid, the story I remembered was how sad her life was because she had had to divorce the man she loved, Joe DiMaggio, for her career. When I got older, I spent hours reading about her and researching her life and death. I remember seeing how big her obituary was. It took up half a page in the Washington Post.
At dinner one night, I said that's what I wanted when I died - one big, honking obituary for me. My brother Jimmy shot back how stupid that was. That he didn't care if there was just a little box in a column about him. Which is good, because when he died a few years later, that was exactly what he got, so he was wise and unimpressed with fame.
When Norman Mailer's book came out about Marilyn, I got it in both hardback and paperback. I think I still have one of them somewhere in the boxes I cart around with me when I move every few years (or less, these days). Marilyn was a damaged person, but also incredibly strong. She was the first Hollywood star to have her own production company and tell the studios to fuck off after all the years she acted as their slave. She was screwed up. She had drug and man problems. But she had an inner strength and beauty that is hard to beat.
Maybe that's why I find it so irritating that an idiot like Lindsay Lohan tries to pretend she's Marilyn in a
new photo shoot. The difference between the actual Stern photo shoot and the pretend Lohan one are obvious. Maybe Marilyn had had a few drinks before taking her clothes off for her shoot, but no amount of loosening up will bring the same vulnerability to Lindsay Lohan. Fake hair. Fake boobs. And such a lack of knowledge about Marilyn that she doesn't even know she should try to fake the openness.
In the end, it was Marilyn's willingness to open herself up and display all the good, bad and ugly that made her a star. It wasn't just the body, the voice and the hair. It was her ability to face herself and put it out there. That's something that's hard to do for any of us (me included - and I might as well be a "never nude" a la Arrested Development).
Every time one of the old Hollywood stars dies, I lament a little more because I don't see anyone worthy of replacing them coming up in the ranks. Lindsay Lohan? Gwyneth Paltrow? Jessica Alba? Yuck. If they didn't have drug addictions and bad relationships, we wouldn't even pay attention.
Art is about being vulnerable and real. Artists are those who take the chance. Marilyn did and didn't survive the experiment. She shouldn't be mimicked by idiot children who want to pretend to be her.
Dear Rico Suave
Thank you for still logging on to my little blog here every once in awhile, looking for anything entertaining coming out of my head. Right now my brain's so full of ca-ca and confusion, I'm loathe to put anything down on Internet paper. I admire your stick-to-it-iveness when it comes to living in this little town and the solidity of your life. In contrast, mine seems like those dunes out at the beach, built of constantly shifting sand.
If the new job comes through, I've certainly got to tough it out, even if it is in the den of slavery that is Capitol Hill. I do think I could make it to 2010 going in to the same office every day when it's one that's actually changing the world, or at least our little corner of it.
And to my frustrated reader who once had me bookmarked, but now has moved on because I'm such a fickle blogger: SORRY. The last word in this blog title is "distractions." That seems to be all I can focus on these days.
